Completely Discharged

Proverbs 18

Whoever isolates himself seeks his own desire; he breaks out against all sound judgment.
2A fool takes no pleasure in understanding, but only in expressing his opinion.
3When wickedness comes, contempt comes also, and with dishonor comes disgrace.
4The words of a man’s mouth are deep waters; the fountain of wisdom is a bubbling brook.
5It is not good to be partial to the wicked or to deprive the righteous of justice.
6A fool’s lips walk into a fight, and his mouth invites a beating.

7A fool’s mouth is his ruin, and his lips are a snare to his soul.
8The words of a whisperer are like delicious morsels; they go down into the inner parts of the body.
9Whoever is slack in his work is a brother to him who destroys.
10The name of the LORD is a strong tower; the righteous man runs into it and is safe.
11A rich man’s wealth is his strong city, and like a high wall in his imagination.
12Before destruction a man’s heart is haughty, but humility comes before honor.
13If one gives an answer before he he
ars, it is his folly and shame.
14A man’s spirit will endure sickness, but a crushed spirit who can bear?
15An intelligent heart acquires knowledge, and the ear of the wise seeks knowledge.
16A man’s gift makes room for him and brings him before the great.
17The one who states his case first seems right, until the other comes and examines him.
18The lot puts an end to quarrels and decides between powerful contenders.
19A brother offended is more unyielding than a strong city, and quarreling is like the bars of a castle.
20From the fruit of a man’s mouth his stomach is satisfied; he is satisfied by the yield of his lips.
21Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.
22He who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor from the LORD.
23The poor use entreaties, but the rich answer roughly.
24A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.

Starting over; bowing first – pink Salvia bloom – August 2020

My cellphone completely discharged. It was even slightly warm to the touch when I woke to find it. This has never happened. There is a lot of this, “This has never happened” stuff going on these days. Some of mine you know and some you don’t. I think we all have our own personal “This has never happened” stuff, along with the obvious “stuff” of the world around us.

Today, in my sphere this personal stuff, these little things have set this morning onto an odd trajectory. Odd because adjusting to more change is not my friend. My friend wrote recently regarding relationships, that going “solo” is not always good. I agree! Even God did not declare the day as “Good” until He had a suitable helpmate designed and handmade for Adam. What a thoughtful God we have, that He made Eve for fellowship with Adam … and made us for fellowship with Him. Don’t get me wrong. God was not lonely! He made us because He wanted us – He still does. Do you want Him? Do you show Him that you want Him or do you show him that He is on your list…somewhere… but not necessarily first. Not to worry, I’m not singling you out, I’m asking this of myself as well.

I thought I had plugged it in around 11:30 when I finally gave up last night.
I thought I would hear my regular early morning notifications for reading and contemplating God’s goodness and plan for me today. I look forward to it.
I thought I would rise early and get a head-start since I have no place I’m required to be this morning – things to do just no place I must go!
NONE OF THIS HAPPENED.
I didn’t hear my notifications. I did no reading or contemplating of anything. I did not rise early by any stretch. I am off bigtime.

I have used logic such as in Geometric reasoning, thinking, if I get dressed and eat breakfast then I will be ready for the day and it will settle into a suitable rhythm whereby I will have risen, read, contemplated and moved on. Then akin to Geometric reasoning is the algebraic form of Boolean reasoning where the operators “Or, And and Not” are used to deduce/produce truth or falsehood in the outcome of the values. It says that if I make two true statements that the outcome will be true.

OH MY, this is NOT “MOST CERTAINLY TRUE” (to refer to Luther’s Small Catechism) in the life as we live it out along human lines. All that I really did do, did not produce truth or falsehood, but instead continued internal chaos. It is however “MOST CERTAINLY TRUE” as we live it out our moments, hours, days in God’s will and ways. The by-product becomes love’s purest form of assurance, peace to the soul, direction for the body for the tasks of the day. I NEED THIS! The bottom line here is that I did not start this day in a way that Acknowledges God’s mercy, Seeks his heart; Relishes his faithfulness; Cherishes his Word; Praises God for his grace or anything like it…

…and feel it, sense it and it presses in around me. My heart feels anxious, as in I feel it. I feel un-done over those mis-steps of this morning and further to this feel the disconnect of doing some work from home that is better done on-site, I miss conversation with a dear friend, I have spoken no audible word for hours and there has been no head-start for the travails of the day, just additional delay.

The result of all this? I think that it is I who am completely discharged. My phone is in there charging; plugged into its power source , silently trying to offer me a lesson, yet I sit with you now lamenting, maybe whining, writing and surely working out my thoughts, feelings and the discombobulation in my heart instead of plugging into our charging source – Prayer, God’s Word, Godly insights of his humble servants and yes, more prayer.

Dear one, I hope you noticed all my, “I” statements and sorted-out this obvious disconnect long before I did? I hope you have already plugged into Jesus today and that you dear friend, surge forth now in electrifying delight over His precious gift of eternity, His compassionate heart for you and the strong tower of truth which he is and on whom we can depend.

I too have noticed! I am contemplating them now and heading off for a real recharge with anticipation of time with Jesus. O Holy Spirit, fall afresh on me, your fallen one, once more and on any who call out to you in earnest. Amen.
If you have not read the verses that I have not placed at the top of this post; you should. Go now! I too, will read them again. Often (to me) a chapter of Proverbs seems composed of many seemingly disjointed thoughts, but taken as a whole Proverbs 18 speaks much truth to the heart, mind and soul of man and today beloved, it speaks to me.

Thank you, beloved of God, for listening to all this today… Truth be known, although I like quiet time, I am no good solo in any fashion. I need you. I was made that way – for fellowship complete with touch – so were you. I miss it. Father in heaven, take this Covid away, in Jesus name, Amen.

His word, His way, with you this day.
I love you,
Sondra

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